Jealosy....

I wonder if that person is jealous of me... I know... I know... I'm exaggerating... But I didn't thought of this word. Jealous.... I actually hate that word...Kiraiii.... It's not like I'm jealous... Well, I used to be jealous... even now. I mean every time I walk home. I will be always jealous.. Why??? Because my parents never pick me up from school... Actually they did but... only a few times... less than 10 times.. Okay back to the point. Here it goes... It started with a friend of mine..(Let's name her Z) always is angry with me, I think... I mean she always stares fiercely at me. Well, firstly I don't think it's jealousy it's hatred... But... i don't know lar....??

That day Z keep on hitting my back. The first time Z hit my back, I thought it was an accident. Then, it was several times... So, I turned to her and said..."Why you keep on hitting my back..." I was about to say " you love me to much ar??" But she cut through and said "Then, next time don't sit in front of me lar!" In my mind two things appeared. Number 1.... Why you so angry? Number 2... Hey I sit down first and you ask me not to sit down in front of you ,while you you are the one who should not sit behind of me....That is when I realized she hated me....and I didn't know why.Then... I tried to ignore her. This is cauz I hate having enemies...

Then other times.... the holidays we're suppose to go for some practice for the com....and I end up not going cauz I was not allowed by my dad to go for the practice... Even though she says she doesn't want to go and told me so... When she went for the training everyday diligently... I knew that she wanted to go... I mean who wants to go every week days from the morning to tea time??? One day I said I wanted to go to see their training and she said I can't cauz it's secret... the seniors won't allow me.... So, I went and ask the senior cauz I was really curious of the training..( I'm a person who is really excited when hears the word secret or P&C, I really want to go and hear it... cauz it's fun to hear other people's secret and learn more 'bout them.... hahaha^^ but... don't worry ... I always keep the secret in me cauz no. 1 i will forget it... no.2 I'm not a bad person.. hahaha^^). Okay so I went and ask my senior whether I can see the training ... And she says of course can.... So... I go tell Z that the senior let me see the training.... And Z says" Oh, then come and see lar". But you know what??? Even so... I didn't go cauz... I got a feeling Z doesn't want me to see...

I told my mom about this situation and she told me. "Maybe she's just jealous. You know lar parents loves to compare their children... So they don't like loosing.."

P.S. Okay if the readers of this post knows who is Z, pls do not say out because I don't want a small thing become a big mess... And.... Z if you realize this is you... This is the only way for me to tell you... Cauz i really like you and hope you're not angry at me.... And I don't know why you're angry with me... So, if you read this post hope you will be less angry with me... If you hate some part of me say it to me ^^.